Category: Signs Of Life

General thoughts, mostly blog updates

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Ragamuffin

I just finished watching Ragamuffin: The Rich Mullins Story. I think, as I look back on it, I was most impacted by the spiritual hardships he endured. And as usual, it got me thinking.

It seems to me that the most creative, amazing, Godly people I know of got that way due to horrible hardships and trouble. I can’t think of one person who really impacted the world for God who was perfect. And it seems to me that the more people suffer through, the more creativity they have at their disposal.

When you hear someone play the blues, it’s easy to tell if they’ve lived through real hardships. It comes through in their playing. There’s a grit there, a sorrow, a hardness that you just can’t fake. Some of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard were written by people who were teetering on the brink of destruction. Their passion and hearts were poured out, even as their lives came crashing down around them. Because their lives were crashing down around them.

I’d like to say I’ve been through hardships. I suppose, compared to a lot of people, I have. I’ve cheated death more than once, and somehow God saw fit to save me from my own stupidity, or whatever it was, and give me another day to live and serve. Continue reading “Ragamuffin”

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Success And Failure: Rest And Laziness

I hate sleep. And much for the same reasons, I love coffee (and caffiene in general).

But try as I might, I can’t shake the fact that I need sleep. I need rest. And I’m not comfortable with that, really. I always feel like I’m missing out on something. I’m always thinking about some cool project, idea, story, song, or something I’d like to have time to work on. I feel empowered when I accomplish things, and God has gifted me with the ability to do some amzaing things. Like being a dad, a writer, a musician, an inventor, an avid cyclist, etc.

Lately, I’m beginning to believe that when God commanded man to rest on the Sabbath, it applied to more than just one day a week.

God knows we are made to be workers. We are innately capable of working tirelessly if the proper motivations are in place. For years, I was ridiculed and singled out by my school teachers for being “lazy” because I didn’t give a rip about history or math. Or homework. The truth was, as a genius-level child, I was bored to tears. I hated homework because I generally got the concepts and understood them fully in class. I didn’t want to practice something I already knew. I was ready to move on to something more exciting! I was the farthest thing from lazy, but they couldn’t understand that. Continue reading “Success And Failure: Rest And Laziness”

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In All Seriousness

I just can’t be serious all the time. I guess after years of blogging here, I’ve become accustomed to only writing about things that really irritate me, or things I’m really passionate about. This might lead one to believe I’m an angry stuffed-shirt curmudgeon who disapproves of everything.

But that’s the furthest thing from the truth. I’m actually a very laid-back, chilled kind of guy. Anybody who’s met me in person knows that… if I were any more laid back, I wouldn’t have a pulse.

And yet in my day-to-day life, I don’t get to discuss things like theology, economics, politics, music theory, programming, and so on. They’re just not common topics of conversation. This is a large reason why I blog about that stuff here. And of course, anybody here is welcome to discuss anything civilly. I relish those opportunities to think and talk about things besides Sportsball and Hunting (the two national passtimes of southern Louisiana). I have absolutely nothing against those things, but I also don’t really care about them, either.

I don’t want to seem indifferent about everything though. I don’t really hate a lot of things. Driving while texting/calling, yes… I despise that with the burning fire of a thousand suns. But I don’t hate people as much as I hate seeing the effects of what people do. Sometimes it gets depressing, honestly.

But not to fear! I haven’t lost my sense of humor. Maybe I need to post funny cat pics, cause you can never have too many of those, right?

DOg chasing dog FAIL GIF

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Who Do You Want To Be?

Recently, I stumbled across a sermon series by Bill Hybels, called “Simplify.” I listened to it, thinking all the while it was going to be full of useful advice on how to simplify our lives… pretty obvious, right? He talks about simplifying finances, simplifying your schedule, simplifying your job, and so forth. For the most part, I was right.

Except that in one of the messages, he says something to the effect of “Don’t ask what you should do; ask who do I want to become? And when you schedule your life around that idea, the rest will fall into place.”

I can’t really explain why, but that little question made me stop and think. What is it that I want to become? Why am I wasting time on doing things that have nothing to do with what I need to be? Why do I do those things? Continue reading “Who Do You Want To Be?”

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The First Rule Of Fight Club

For the last few months, I’ve been really torn about the exceedingly hostile culture towards Christians, specifically in Geeky circles. At first, I pretended to not notice it. The random, unrelated references to “Science” as a proper noun. The occasional comment about despising church. And then, I started seeing actual vitriol flung at people for simply asking questions. It progressed to the point where some people I respected were joining in the fray, participating in character assassination based solely on one facet of someone’s faith.

I thought rational people were supposed to ask questions! I was raised to question authority, and more and more, I’m seeing this being frowned upon by the very people who are supposed to be tolerant and open-minded. What this tells me is they’re not arguing for atheism because they want to prove it correct; they’re not even trying to disprove the existance of God. They’re arguing it for their own personal reasons. They are, quite simply, trying to get us to shut up so their own conscience can be quiet.

Atheism has become the very thing it despises… an authoritarian, prejudiced, intolerant religion. Continue reading “The First Rule Of Fight Club”

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The Death Of The Gentleman

Sadly, modern Feminism is destroying the gentleman. Instead of encouraging women to become more, since the 50’s it has mostly slid into the practice of dragging men down. It is becoming difficult to teach boys to be gentlemen when girls are constantly being told they don’t need gentlemen. Or men.

Being a gentleman is a lost social grace… when technically they’re not needed. If a man serves as a gentleman at all times, when the need arises he will be ready and trained to think of others outside himself.

We have to break the cycle. It has to start somewhere. We must continue to teach and expect our boys to be gentlemen, regardless of what society tells them. That way when things finally (hopefully!) level out and reason comes back into fashion, they will be poised and ready to fill that role in society. They refuse to be victims, and insist on true “correctness” even when nobody is looking.

What is the purpose of a Gentleman? Why are they in short supply, and are they even really needed? The Fierce Gentleman Manifesto breaks a Gentleman down into twenty-one basics, which does an excellent job of explaining. So much so, that I’m not going to try to recreate what they’ve already done so well. I’ll touch on a few of these that are near and dear to my life, however. Continue reading “The Death Of The Gentleman”

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Pray All The Things!

If you’ve been paying attention over the last few years, you may have noticed a disturbing trend in the Church. It’s sort of what happens when the culture you live in is overrun by people who value relativism and hate the truth. It’s where you believe that positive thinking literally makes things happen, and that everybody has “a little bit of God in them.”

This really scares me. People like T.D. Jakes, Joyce Meyers, Kenneth Copeland, and Joel Osteen are telling people “God will bless you financially/physically if you’re truly faithful” but let me tell you, people… this is not what Jesus said.

Kenneth Copeland says:

The fact is, you really haven’t prayed in faith if you pray about something, but don’t take it. If you get up from prayer saying, “I don’t have it. I’m still sick, I still feel bad,” then you didn’t take it…and you certainly don’t have it.

Joel Osteen says:

God has already done everything He’s going to do. The ball is now in your court. If you want success, if you want wisdom, if you want to be prosperous and healthy, you’re going to have to do more than meditate and believe; you must boldly declare words of faith and victory over yourself and your family.

And we could go on and on. How much emotional crippling damage has this done to people’s faith? It totally takes God’s will out of the equation. Can you imagine telling the Apostle Paul “I’m sorry, but God’s not going to heal the thorn in your flesh because you haven’t prayed in faith.“ Or maybe telling Peter “Sorry, if you had declared words of faith and victory, you’d be rich and comfortable right now instead of being martyred upside-down on a cross.”

What if God doesn’t want you to be rich in this life?

What if God doesn’t want you to be comfortable in this life?

What if God doesn’t want you to be healed in this life?

The truth is, God doesn’t need us to be healthy or rich for us to serve Him, for us to worship Him, for us to glorify Him.

And we aren’t called to do anything else. Continue reading “Pray All The Things!”

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The World Needs Solutions, Not Answers

One of the things I’ve spent a lot of time dealing with in my life is where we derive our self-worth as human beings. On what basis do we judge ourselves as “successful?” Where do we look for validation, and how do we achieve it? Is it even worth trying?

The World® has all kinds of answers. Vapid and pointless answers, but they do have answers. Plenty of people who are looking for the answers to life really believe these answers, too. This is the tragedy of our modern church. We have failed to provide answers for a populace that is desperately seeking them. And in typical human fashion, they found their answers elsewhere, even if they’re wrong.

When I tell people “God loves you” I’m assuming they know certain things that I know. I assume they know that Jesus Christ was God in human form. I assume they know about Sin and Atonement. I assume they know they need a savior.

But what if they want an answer, when they don’t even know the question?

[Insert joke about the number “42” here]

In reality, people don’t know what they want answers for. They’re looking for solutions, not answers. Someone might ask me “Why won’t my car run?” I can tell them “Your car won’t run because it broke the timing belt,” but if they don’t know what a timing belt is, it won’t help. It’s the correct answer to their question, and it’s helpful to someone like myself who knows what to do with that information. But if they have no clue, it doesn’t help… the problem is still unsolved in their minds. I haven’t offered any solution. Continue reading “The World Needs Solutions, Not Answers”

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Culture War Pacifist

I’ll be honest, I follow quite a few outspoken bloggers and writers in my day-to-day reading. I’m always interested in their takes on culture, current events, and whatnot. And yes, most of them lean towards my thoughts in several areas. I enjoy the challenge of thinking about difficult problems of life and faith.

But so far I’ve resisted the urge to post my own thoughts on “left” and “right” and right and wrong in the never-ending Culture War. Is this because I don’t know what I believe? Is it because I don’t want to offend anybody?

No. It’s because I don’t feel I need to proactively defend what I think, or try to convince others what I think is right or wrong. I know from personal experience that it’s very difficult to change someone’s mind unless they are willing to consider alternatives. And frankly, in today’s internet environment, it’s just easier to find a group of people that thinks like you instead of actually trying to defend your beliefs.

Should I be actively throwing my beliefs on social issues out there? Should I be overwhelmingly vocal about things that other people feel passionately about? I guess that depends on my reason for having a blog in the first place. Some things I am vocal about; some I’m not. Some things I just am not interested in discussing, and some things I need to learn more about before I would even consider it. Ultimately, I get to decide what I want to discuss because I feel it’s relevant. Is that selfish of me? Continue reading “Culture War Pacifist”

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Sleep Deprivation And You

I have always struggled with getting enough rest, for as long as I can remember. Through my college years, I would stay awake for days (usually playing ping-pong and video games) and then binge sleep on the weekends (and some Mondays). I never really thought anything of it.

A few years back, I took a job working at a hospital in New Orleans. I had the joy of working the weekend night shift, which meant I worked 7pm to 7am, Saturday and Sunday night, every week. I would get off of work Monday morning when the day crew would come in at 7am. I was alone the whole time. Sometimes late at night I would walk up to the ICU ward and listen to the breathing machines and monitors, just to stay awake. Sometimes I would go up to the NeoNatal unit to watch preemies in incubators. Sometimes I was so tired, I would hallucinate, and fall asleep sitting at my desk, perched on a tall chair. Sometimes between 4am and 5am I would pass out on the floor, with my backpack as a pillow, and sleep for 30 minutes because I couldn’t hold my eyes open.

To make things worse, I had to come in for two 8-hour day shifts on Wednesdays and Thursdays, every week. After six months, my body still hadn’t adjusted. I was either working, sleeping, or staring into space like a zombie. For six straight months.

Somewhere during that time, I realized that I couldn’t function without sleep. That’s also when I started drinking coffee to be able to function (and it’s been ten years, I still haven’t broken that addiction! LOL). Eventually, I quit that job because I couldn’t function. Things went back to normal- for a while.

Fast forward a few years. Now I’m working a job I love. I’m eating right, exercising, doing everything right. And yet, I don’t get enough sleep. How much is considered enough? How much does a normal person need to function properly? Would you even know what functioning properly would feel like?? Continue reading “Sleep Deprivation And You”