I feel like God is drawing me into wanting to do music ministry full time. I don’t know what that will look like yet.
I don’t know if that’s something I need to go back to school for, and I’m not really thrilled about that. It would be exciting, but at the same time… I don’t feel like I could do it with my current job.
I really like my current job, but I know it is not my life’s calling. I would much rather teach music and lead worship for a living. But how can I do that? I can’t just quit my job. Not yet, at least.
What would that (going back into music ministry) look like? How could I (understanding it’s not me) make that happen? Why is God showing me this? Why is God giving me a desire to make worship my career, after so many years of me saying “I will never do professional music ministry again”? Can I do that without sacrificing my heart? I want to be pure in motivation. I never want to make money worshipping. But I would love to be able to do that all the time.
I’ll be honest- I’m not as young as I used to be. I’m not cool, or hip, or trendy. But I know a lot about music. And I pursue the Lord in worship as often as I can, with as much gusto as I can. That’s what I was created to do: that’s my purpose.
I also don’t want to make a career out of being a “professional music minister” hopping from church to church, looking for that “big break.” I’m fine staying where I am. I think my current church is fantastic, Biblical, grounded, and spirit-filled. They know how to worship. I love the people there. God is using me there.
And yet, when I see ministries that equip worship teams and leaders (some really good ones like Worship Tutorials or Lead Worship) I think about how much I would love to do that.
I think it would be possible for my church to be host to a ministry where we discipled musicians and worship leaders. I’m not even sure I would want to run it- but I want to be a part of something like that.
So for now I’m going to work on learning more, reading more books, worshipping when I can, and praying about God starting a worship/discipleship ministry in our church. I will practice and work on improving what I can, and let God do the rest.
I am praying in faith that this will come to pass. I don’t know when or how, but I know God’s heart is for us as a church to make disciples. And I want that more than anything.