I have thoughts on things.
My head is always full of thoughts on all kinds of things. Lots of things. Always.
Most of the time, it’s not important stuff. Such is the life of an adult ADD’er.
But sometimes…. sometimes, God gets a hold of me and I think about things that are important. Like “How am I going to multiply the gifts God has given me?” Or sometimes “How can I call myself a Christian when I fail all the time?” (I get this one quite frequently.)
Sometimes I get a wild idea to create something. And most of the time, before I can do anything about it, there’s a voice inside my head saying “Don’t bother. You won’t have time to do it the way you want. And you’re too distracted to finish it anyway.”
Sigh.
I have been asking God to give me clarity on this. I will always fight the battle of distractions, but I know God wants me to get through that barrier.
This is not for me… not to prove anything. I’ve already proved I can do things on my own. I need to rely on God for this.
I am getting to the point where I’m ready to do things again. I have a lot of things I want to do that I need to get out. And it’s going to require me to go into ADD Beast Mode© to get them done.
This will not be easy for me, or my family. When I decided to
write a novel, it required months of working on it every chance I got. This is the only way I know how to get things done. It’s the way God created me. I wish I could turn my brain’s “creative mode” on and off like a light switch… but that’s not going to happen.
I have a couple of major projects I want to get done soon (this year). I want to rebuild my ’65 Rambler. I want to finish my Christian Fantasy novel. I want to record an album. And I want to rebuild my base miles on my bike.
None of these are easy on their own. Most people wouldn’t be able to do any of them, much less all of them.
But I’m not like most people.
To make this happen, I need a plan. First things first: I need to order some parts for the Rambler, and make it driveable. We will pull the car up onto the patio, and move the swing a-frame over it. We’ll take apart the whole front end, remove the hood, fenders, grille, etc. and remove the engine to have it rebuilt. While the engine is out, we can work on cleaning it up. We can fix the holes in the floor, the window seals, the leaky brake line, replace the carpet, etc. and maybe even fix the blinkers and horn. This will probably take 4-6 months to finish. For the bodywork, we’ll also need to rent a CO2 bottle for my welding machine.
For the novel: I have the outline already, and have spent several days working on scenes. But I need to spend some quality time with it, and just crunch out some wordcount. Then I can take a break and edit it when I have time. This will probably take me 6 weeks for the rough draft, and another 6 months to edit.
For the bicycle: I want to ride 3,000 miles in a year. That averages out to 250 miles a month, and roughly 60 miles a week. This is a doable goal if I split my rides into 15/15/30 miles over 3 days. That’s ~4 hours a week. My bike is ready to go. I just have to get into the routine.
For the album: This one is going to be the most difficult, because I have so many fears about it. I don’t even know where to start, but I know I need to start. And honestly, this is the one I should be least worried about, because playing music is what I’m best at.
The next few months are going to be interesting….
