Living with ADD – Living Outside The Box

As someone with- how shall I say it- “questionable” focusing ability, I’m always fighting the urge to allow myself to be distracted. Thanks to the internet and social media, there’s never a shortage of distractions.

Gee, thanks, internet.

What I need is Laser Focus. And I don’t have it, not even close. But it is possible for me to focus for short periods of time, say, an hour or so.

I’ll be honest, I’m tired a lot. That’s mostly because I don’t get enough sleep, which compounds my focusing problem. But something has to give, right? I just can’t sleep 8 hours and take over the world. So I’m going to update the Blog^® as often as I can without lowering the quality of my posts. Where does that balance lie? I guess I’ll have to find out. For now I’ll be working on material for some nonfiction books, and I’ll post some of that here when I can (hint: some of it is already posted!) and I need to focus more on that. Continue reading “Posts With Lasers”

I enjoyed having a day off yesterday (it was Labor Day here in the States). I ended up doing yard work, fixing things around the house, and getting a bad sinus headache. Thankfully, my awesome wife knows all about headaches and how to get rid of them!

But there will be more work to do when I get to work, and even more to do when I get back home. The pile of work never seems to end, even though I’m plowing through it at record pace.

I bemoan the fact that I don’t have time to write more, or make music, or whatever. The truth is, I just don’t have time to do everything. This is a recurring theme in my life, and I write about it often because I’m still struggling with it.

Deep down, I know what I have time to do. But I want to do more. But why?

Is it because I want to impress people? That’s not really it.
Is it because I’m looking for acceptance? Part of me does.
Is it because I’m trying to prove I can do it to doubters? Sometimes.
Is it because I have amazing ideas and I’m the only one who will bring them to life? This happens frequently.
Is it because I feel useful when I’m doing things, and useless when I’m not? Yeah, that’s definitely part of it.
Is it because most of my crazy ideas would be ridiculously fun? Yup. Definitely part of it.

So what happens when your own drive to do things short-circuits your ability to do simple, necessary things, like study, play with your family, and mentor your children? Continue reading “Diving Deep, Coming Up For Air”